recessivegene

That's what it is. It's only a little gathering! But I still feel like I'm drowning. Choking up. Trying to find the "source" yields no results. Logically, there is no single source. It's a build up; over time. I just really want it to be over. To go back to "normal." The Before. Can't look towards the future. Instead of drowning, it's panic that cages my head and shakes my insides until I'm physically trembling. Then take a deep breath. Push the thoughts away. Doesn't work for long. They come back. Distractions. Temporary reprieve. So, wait it out. There's no waiting it out. Find something, anything, that does the job. Off-key notes reve